Its that time of year again where the holiday spirit is starting to take shape. Turkeys, shades of orange, green and red, and holiday music playing in all the stores. I love this part of the year but for some reason I am just not feeling it this year. I am looking forward to indulging in the food and family but just the hustle and bustle of it all has me in the dumps. Maybe because I am broke this year. I have so much that is going on this holiday season and the only thing that I can think about is waking up Christmas morning in my new home. My girls are looking forward to the season and I am looking forward to seeing their little faces as well. I just hope that it is all under my own roof.
So now that I am living with my mother for the time being I know that I will be up just as long as she is, cooking. I wanted to make my little dish and contribute to the Thanksgiving feast but it looks as if I'll be in there elbow deep tomorrow night. I know that I need to get in the rhythm of doing that anyways because I need to start cooking for my own family for the holidays but DANGIT, I AIN'T FEELING IT THIS YEAR.
I must say that I have so much to be thankful for and I try to hold on to that feeling, but when I think of all the work that is involves, I just think about pulling the covers over my head until someone screams for me to come and eat. I am assuming that the pressures of the house and being exhaustingly (not sure if that is a word or not, but it is perfect for this situation)ready to move have finally taken its toll on me. But in the meantime I will grin and bear it. Happy Thanksgiving!
My 5 most Euphoric things today:
5. One more day of work
4. Gumbo for dinner
3. Thanksgiving dinner
2. Baking a cake for the office, even if half the people here don't like me
1. Preparing to close on my home (keep us in your prayers)
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Monday, November 7, 2011
It's Been a Minute
WOW! I'm back...sorry for the 6 month hiatus I took but life happened. What a roller coaster ride I have been on for that time. Not to mention that I forgot my password to log in and then lost my internet access at work and at home. But nevertheless I got it all worked out and I am starting my blog back up.
So much has happened and I have so much that I want to get out. So much that I want to share and other things that I hope no one ecer finds out about. Well, my husband and I shared 5 years of marriage back on June 3rd. Spent some time with the girls in July before the returned to school. Went to a training for my job a month in August, celebrated Brooklyn's 5th birthday in September and spent 6 days in the hospital in October. I did mention that life has been a roller coaster ride, right?
The completion and closing of the house that we have been wrapped up in was postponed a 3rd time to November, so hopefully by the end of the month I will be blogging from my own home. But I must say that I have had some humbling experiences during this waiting period. Brooklyn graduated for Pre-K and was the mistress of ceremonies at her graduation and Gabrielle was crowned defensive player of the year for her basketball team. I must say that I am a proud mommy. Then lupus rared its ugly head and caused me a 5 day six night stay and the luxurious UT Southwestern Medical Center. I have learned that if I want to keep being a proud mommy, wife and soon to be home owner, I am going to have to take those lupus warnings a little more serious and get to the doctor a little sooner.
I've gained some pride in myself and decided that this life is worth living and I have started to live it a little more liberatingly (I know spellcheck is going to eat me up for that one). I cherish the good times more now and I try not to dwell on the bad ones for so long. I have learned to control my emotions a little more since I have been sharing a domain with my parents and learned that I actually can control my temper. My husband and I have a better relationship throughout this experience as well. I sure hope it stays that way because I have gotten use to settling differences a little different since we have an audience now. But through it all I have gained confidence in myself and my willingness to get things done no matter what.
Thanking God is a daily activity and being a smiling face to people that don't really care for me has been a goal as well. Nothing like a great, "Good morning, how are you today?", with a smile big as the sun to start someones day. And the reactions that I have been getting from these people is amazing. Some mornings they return the gesture with a less than friendly smile if they speak at all. But I don't care anymore. I've learned that no matter what you do, everyone is not going to like you and that I have to stop calling everyone my friend. But that it just me, "Friendly Fannie." But to God be the glory for all this that I have, which is sometimes nothing at all.
MY 5 MOST EUPHORIC THINGS TODAY:
5. The month of November, October was a mess
4. The fall, I'm loving the color splash God's creating
3. Health and strength
2. Time
1. Reflection
So much has happened and I have so much that I want to get out. So much that I want to share and other things that I hope no one ecer finds out about. Well, my husband and I shared 5 years of marriage back on June 3rd. Spent some time with the girls in July before the returned to school. Went to a training for my job a month in August, celebrated Brooklyn's 5th birthday in September and spent 6 days in the hospital in October. I did mention that life has been a roller coaster ride, right?
The completion and closing of the house that we have been wrapped up in was postponed a 3rd time to November, so hopefully by the end of the month I will be blogging from my own home. But I must say that I have had some humbling experiences during this waiting period. Brooklyn graduated for Pre-K and was the mistress of ceremonies at her graduation and Gabrielle was crowned defensive player of the year for her basketball team. I must say that I am a proud mommy. Then lupus rared its ugly head and caused me a 5 day six night stay and the luxurious UT Southwestern Medical Center. I have learned that if I want to keep being a proud mommy, wife and soon to be home owner, I am going to have to take those lupus warnings a little more serious and get to the doctor a little sooner.
I've gained some pride in myself and decided that this life is worth living and I have started to live it a little more liberatingly (I know spellcheck is going to eat me up for that one). I cherish the good times more now and I try not to dwell on the bad ones for so long. I have learned to control my emotions a little more since I have been sharing a domain with my parents and learned that I actually can control my temper. My husband and I have a better relationship throughout this experience as well. I sure hope it stays that way because I have gotten use to settling differences a little different since we have an audience now. But through it all I have gained confidence in myself and my willingness to get things done no matter what.
Thanking God is a daily activity and being a smiling face to people that don't really care for me has been a goal as well. Nothing like a great, "Good morning, how are you today?", with a smile big as the sun to start someones day. And the reactions that I have been getting from these people is amazing. Some mornings they return the gesture with a less than friendly smile if they speak at all. But I don't care anymore. I've learned that no matter what you do, everyone is not going to like you and that I have to stop calling everyone my friend. But that it just me, "Friendly Fannie." But to God be the glory for all this that I have, which is sometimes nothing at all.
MY 5 MOST EUPHORIC THINGS TODAY:
5. The month of November, October was a mess
4. The fall, I'm loving the color splash God's creating
3. Health and strength
2. Time
1. Reflection
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