We as women are always faced with decisions of whether to be submissive or take control. Most women that I know take control because we are those type of women. I hate to see my husband in compromising positions so I try to take control to help out. I am often charged with stepping over my boundaries but sometimes I see no other way. In my vows on my wedding day there was no mention of "obedience." I haven't ever been the submissive type. But I know that in some areas I know that I have to be...I dare to say the word...submissive, but in order for this thing to work, I have to bite the bullet.
I know that in my marriage my husband may have many complaints but depending on me is not one of them. I have always been superwoman. There to save the day when all other options have been exhausted. But at this point in my marriage and in life in general I am ready to retire from the "take charge" position that I have taken from my husband and I am letting go. This is the hardest thing that I have ever done and I am ready to release this position to him. Am I worried? HELL YEAH!! Will it be a gradual switch? Of course. Will I still have a say? Without a doubt.
My husband seems to think that I have been in control for too long and that I just won't let him be the man in this relationship. Well as of right now I am relinquishing my rights and handing them over to him. I expect business to move as though there was no change and in my unconscious efforts, I will still be in the shadows of my good man in the event that he stumbles. With the grace of God this transition should go off without a hitch.
My 5 Euphoric things today:
5. Jazmin Sullivan station on Pandora
4. Not many clients today
3. Making it to the middle of May
2. DeMarco's smile when I brought him lunch
1. Letting go
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