Hi Guys, here I sit at my desk during my lunch hour engulfed in my greatest escape...my music. Today I chose to tune my Pandora dial to Kelly Price radio station and what a great decision that was. Its a mixture of a little gospel and some of the best R&B that has even been released.
I am a HUGE Kelly Price fan. She is so deep and her voice is like a thick, rich chocolate. Like the kind that they dip the strawberries in. Her voice sounds like all those words that she sang she actually went through. Have you ever heard a song and the instruments and the voice and all the sound affects intertwined so well that all you could do was close your eyes and feel it in your soul? That is how I am with Kelly. When I hear and oldie but goodie I take myself back to that time and remember what I was doing when I was so in love with the song. Whether it was good or bad, and I can recollect exactly how I felt at that moment.
When Kelly released her first album I remember being infatuated with her because she had such a wonderful voice and yet she sung back up all those years behind Mariah Carey. But she knew that her weight played a major roll in that. And then when she opened her mouth and the hurt and pain that she had experienced spilled out into the universe I was a fan for life. I too was a little overweight at the time and it seemed as though love just didn't love me. I would listen to her night and day and be entertained and angry and then determined and so on. I went through a truck load of emotions with Kelly so in my stalker mind she and I had SOOO MUCH IN COMMON. Now that I look back at those times I was not stable. But yet I still love the music.
I like taking myself on those roller coaster ride memories and seeing where I have come from emotionally. I like remembering in college dancing to the club lights came on, driving down the street belting out my favorite tune as if I had written it myself and either crying or laughing as I remember exactly what I was going through or what had happened when a particular song was released. Days like this I feel sorry for people that suffer from amnesia. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have my memories to remind me that I have come a long way. So thanks Kelly for getting me through some rough patches. I am a fan for life.
My Top 5 Euphoric things today:
5. Cold oranges for breakfast
4. Friday Eve's (my favorite day of the week)
3. Light work load
2. Dressing down
1. The sound of music
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
On the Search...
March 30, 2010
Now that I have started this blog I am constantly going through my day searching for a new topic but when my fingers hit the keys the topics come....or not.
For the past few weeks I have been pondering the meaning of "FRIENDS" and what the job requires. In my life I have never made friends easily because I think that I am the ultimate friend. I think that all friends should be like me because this is what I bring to the table:
I'm Loyal
Good listener
Protective
Loving
Open
Blunt
...and sympathetic (when needed)
I have found that when entering new friendships they are way different than the ones that I have been having for years, and then some of those friendships have fallen off too. I think that the cause is this prayer that I prayed, "Lord please remove the people from my life that are not going to have a positive impact in the end." And since uttering those words I have been going through "friends" left and right. I was thinking that maybe it was me that is difficult to be around. I can see that being a reason, but why? I love unconditionally, I'm not petty and I'm a pretty good team player, or so I thought. But what can you do? In a way I just feel that it is God answering another prayer as well as getting out the things that really don't matter anymore. But truth be told, some of those people I really did care for. But believe it or not, now that we aren't as close anymore I don't miss them as much as I thought I would. God is so awesome! Guess I just answered my own quizzical thoughts. But I do hope that he replaces them with more people...or is he saving me for himself....hmmm....another light bulb just went off.
Well to all the 2 friends that I call my own, we'll always be together, I'll always be here, and if we start to divide just know that you were a part of God's seperation project that he has going on with me right now.
My 5 Euphoric things today:
5. Lunch breaks
4. Cooking for my parents
3. Spring
2. Assisting the public
1. Tangelina (my BFF, always and forever, I know she won't make the cut. She'll protest)
Now that I have started this blog I am constantly going through my day searching for a new topic but when my fingers hit the keys the topics come....or not.
For the past few weeks I have been pondering the meaning of "FRIENDS" and what the job requires. In my life I have never made friends easily because I think that I am the ultimate friend. I think that all friends should be like me because this is what I bring to the table:
I'm Loyal
Good listener
Protective
Loving
Open
Blunt
...and sympathetic (when needed)
I have found that when entering new friendships they are way different than the ones that I have been having for years, and then some of those friendships have fallen off too. I think that the cause is this prayer that I prayed, "Lord please remove the people from my life that are not going to have a positive impact in the end." And since uttering those words I have been going through "friends" left and right. I was thinking that maybe it was me that is difficult to be around. I can see that being a reason, but why? I love unconditionally, I'm not petty and I'm a pretty good team player, or so I thought. But what can you do? In a way I just feel that it is God answering another prayer as well as getting out the things that really don't matter anymore. But truth be told, some of those people I really did care for. But believe it or not, now that we aren't as close anymore I don't miss them as much as I thought I would. God is so awesome! Guess I just answered my own quizzical thoughts. But I do hope that he replaces them with more people...or is he saving me for himself....hmmm....another light bulb just went off.
Well to all the 2 friends that I call my own, we'll always be together, I'll always be here, and if we start to divide just know that you were a part of God's seperation project that he has going on with me right now.
My 5 Euphoric things today:
5. Lunch breaks
4. Cooking for my parents
3. Spring
2. Assisting the public
1. Tangelina (my BFF, always and forever, I know she won't make the cut. She'll protest)
Monday, March 28, 2011
The Beginning of Change
March 28, 2011
HELLO WORLD!!! I finally fell to my sisters idea of me starting a blog. I thought it was obsurd for me to let the world in on my comedic, ignorant, depressing banter but I thought that the ending result may have been the counseling that I needed. I named my blog, "Euphoric Expectations." Why? Well the dictionary definition of euphoric is:
eu·pho·ria (yo̵̅o̅ fôr′ē ə)
As my sister knows this life for me has had some very bumpy roads in my short 31 years. Diagnosis of Lupus at 26, unemployment, loss of my home this year and just depression from it all. She is definitely the angel that stands watch over me. She was the one that kept my spirits up when times were just horrific. But I am taking her lead and putting the past behind me. No more depression, no more pain and disappointment only surrounding myself with "Euphoric Expectations!" God has brought me through a lot and though I am not out the valley yet I see the mountains ahead of me. We are a family of 4 living with my parents and I think that things just can't get any worst. But the future looks euphoric. We are starting a new life and things are looking up.
Thanks Renay for showing me a new sense of euphoria, that the opposite of bad is good and that even though the future looks obselete a mustard seed can make all the difference. I now have the faith. I can now hear his voice and it tells me that things are gonna get better. God places people in our life for a reason, and if given a hundred chances I would still need more numbers to tell you why he placed you in mine. Though the recent past has brought about a change I cling to the things that God taught me through you. So in honor of you I will also find euphoria in the 5 daily things that make life wonderful to me.
5 things I'm greatful for:
5. Giving me Lavett Renay Washington
4. Lupus, for entering my life to witness the reason behind the pain and the ability to accept it and roll with the punches
3. Gabrielle & Brooklyn (my daughters)
2. Being able to blog
1. The mustard seed
This first blog is dedicated to you Renay. Thank you for showing me parts of life that I didn't think I would have without you. Thanks for showing me how to free my mind and train my ear to God's voice. I love you EUPHORICALLY!
***tears***
HELLO WORLD!!! I finally fell to my sisters idea of me starting a blog. I thought it was obsurd for me to let the world in on my comedic, ignorant, depressing banter but I thought that the ending result may have been the counseling that I needed. I named my blog, "Euphoric Expectations." Why? Well the dictionary definition of euphoric is:
eu·pho·ria (yo̵̅o̅ fôr′ē ə)
noun
a feeling of vigor, well-being, or high spirits
As my sister knows this life for me has had some very bumpy roads in my short 31 years. Diagnosis of Lupus at 26, unemployment, loss of my home this year and just depression from it all. She is definitely the angel that stands watch over me. She was the one that kept my spirits up when times were just horrific. But I am taking her lead and putting the past behind me. No more depression, no more pain and disappointment only surrounding myself with "Euphoric Expectations!" God has brought me through a lot and though I am not out the valley yet I see the mountains ahead of me. We are a family of 4 living with my parents and I think that things just can't get any worst. But the future looks euphoric. We are starting a new life and things are looking up.
Thanks Renay for showing me a new sense of euphoria, that the opposite of bad is good and that even though the future looks obselete a mustard seed can make all the difference. I now have the faith. I can now hear his voice and it tells me that things are gonna get better. God places people in our life for a reason, and if given a hundred chances I would still need more numbers to tell you why he placed you in mine. Though the recent past has brought about a change I cling to the things that God taught me through you. So in honor of you I will also find euphoria in the 5 daily things that make life wonderful to me.
5 things I'm greatful for:
5. Giving me Lavett Renay Washington
4. Lupus, for entering my life to witness the reason behind the pain and the ability to accept it and roll with the punches
3. Gabrielle & Brooklyn (my daughters)
2. Being able to blog
1. The mustard seed
This first blog is dedicated to you Renay. Thank you for showing me parts of life that I didn't think I would have without you. Thanks for showing me how to free my mind and train my ear to God's voice. I love you EUPHORICALLY!
***tears***
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